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Sometimes the greatest feeling of liking or loving someone can leave you strained, empty, wanting more and smiling less. I just had to say that
Sarnan

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re-posting

So i know i have been quite quiet for some time now... But for these past few days... The events that have come to pass in my life has left me feeling some weird feelings and also wondering... Why did i stop writing in the first place. I love it... I like it... I live to read as well.. So i have decided to start posting all over again. Be there no followers or some or maybe even a 100, i don't quite care :)

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Sarnan

A very nice day

So i am sitting on my balcony and writing this while i watch the stars...

Sometimes... Somedays are just plain boring... You can intrusive moments where you feel someone is budding into your personal space by nosing about your business... Somedays you feel like your feeling just for crushed like a bubble wrap... There are some special days when you see that someone smile and you hurt just feels so warm, nice and mushy... Someday you just want to fucking kill someday.. Well today i didn't feel anything.. Which is not shocking as i am apathetic most of the time and i sense no pain, and i am like a freaking robot... But today it wasn't the part that i didn't feel anything that shocked me! It was the EMPTY part.. The part where... I don't know... I hope i ain't the only alien feeling these "mars" like feelings.. But how do people cope with it? How do people change these feelings? How do people feel better the next day after having a "begining of the end" day the day before? How! HOW! HOW! I just don't know!!

I can't help but wonder... How come my friend's have feelings that i don't have... I've had friends calling me up crying to talk to me! I've had friends who talk to me about break ups and family problems and feel sad about it! I wonder how it feels to have those emotions sometimes.. Clinically, nothing is wrong with me as i have set in psych class and i have read and done tests to know that i am HUMAN after all.. But sometimes i amaze myself. :) When i do have interest in something or someone, i will show it a lil bit more clearly. I am like one of those kids you will come across in kindergarden, when i like someone i will punch them on their shoulder and go "i think i like you!" but i might just mean it after all! Owh well, every cloud has it's shape.. Maybe i haven't found mine yet... Are we doing this right? Are we doing life the right way? AM I DOING IT RIGHT? I just know that i am doing it... I don't know right... I don't know wrong... i am just doing life... Like every one of us... I don't know how some people have found the purpose and faith to become something or someone... I don't know how some people think that they have a higher purpose... I wish i knew how.. But i am still discovering mine i guess. ANYWAY... that aside... Days go by... Till september will come.. Maybe i will start feeling more! MAYBE and the pigs can fly and the world will have peace! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Undercover Feelings

So now and then we will have those feelings creeping up on us and we will end up FEELING it... RIGHT... On Friday... I guess mine just creeped up and caught up with me... I am pretty emotionless most of the time... Well except for laughing shit loads and basically that's it... i am usually apathetic which is sad right LOL.. Yeah back to the drama... My feelings caught up with me... and i called somebody...and i feel like a bo-zo and not a ho-bo!! La li la li la...and Walaa... I ended up listening to John Legend's "Heaven Only Knows" at the end of the evening when i was going to bed. WALAAAAAAA... Hahahaha

Sometimes people make choices in their life that they will regret... But these are the very same mistakes that will help us understand ourselves better maybe.. Or just diss the shit out of us when we are totally feeling down! But what the hell, these are the feelings and these are the times that matters the most to every single person and we shouldn't loose these feelings for anyone at all i guess.. Well unless you love someone to bits and pieces and crumbles like how i love my besties! Owh welll... I rambled on... THAT'S THAT! By the way... I think if anyone out there is reading this, they should watch Seven Pounds, as it is a great movie :)

Postsecret and things

Its been ages since i last wrote. Marina has got me a new arm band that says, THINK LOVE, which means i have to be a bit more positive and think about not dissing people anymore. I was reading through postsecret today and i realised that i have loads of the secrets that i LOVE and so i am gonna post up some of them that i love :). Hope you guys like it as well :
































































































That's it for now..I don't wanna drown it :). Leaving to sabah tomorrow :)

Christmas... 2008... 2009

Christmas has come to be...and i am totally in towards looking forward to 2009...
Today is officially boxing day...and i am totally stoked about the part where my besties are coming down and we get to spend some quality time together...FINALLY!
Christmas eve dinner was great...i made cocktails and had a good time with Brian and some of my other friends... Cheers to that...
2008 in general was a year to reflect about when 2009 hits i guess.. Its been overall a learning curve for me, coming back home, getting hit hard, loosing my mind, loosing my name, and of course gaining in back and i MET SUCH WONDERFULL FRIENDS this year...its SOOOOOOOO GOOD!!!! I LOVE THEM ALL!!!!!!!

2009!!!! HERE I COME!!!